Detention with Mr. Meeps

June 23, 2009 at 5:56 pm (short stories) (, , , , , , )

From the writing prompt, “Louder isn’t always better.”  I loved being able to focus on Oliver. And though he doesn’t appear much in this (in human form, anyway), it was also fun to introduce Lex.

The sound of something large and heavy being tipped over made Oliver Meeps pause for a moment outside the classroom door. He waited there for a moment, listening intently to the clamor of voices inside. A male voice was raised in anger and then abruptly cut off; something resembling a girlish scream rang out, and then Oliver heard the familiar sound of someone being tossed into a large wastebasket. This was followed directly by a loud flatulent noise that sounded very much like an angry octopus trying to extricate itself from a mound of paper and pencil shavings.

If Mr. Meeps had learned anything from fifteen years of hero work and another five of substitute teaching, it was that timing was everything. Straightening from leaning on his cane, he took a deep breath, squared his shoulders as best he could, and entered Springfield High’s after-school detention room.

Unsurprisingly, he was immediately greeted by the guilty-looking expressions of six football players. They were all gathered around the industrial-sized trashcan over in the corner, doing a good job of blocking his view of it. The desk directly next to the trashcan was knocked over, and if there hadnt’ been two notebooks scattered like debris around the desk, a worse observer than Oliver would never have known there was a seventh student in the room.

But Oliver was a good observer, and he also had the advantage of being able to physically see the moral character of every individual in the room. He took a moment to indulge in what he privately called the “soul searching” of the room’s occupants. The small balls of color he saw coming from each of the boys all had distinct shades of very guilty purple around the edges. He knew their types well. They weren’t necessarily bad at heart; they were just unruly, disrespectful, and rarely disciplined. A few of them even had the potential to do something quite impactful with their lives, if they picked better friends to associate with.

Still, they’d been caught red-handed, as it were, and for a split second Oliver knew he had their attention. He cleared his throat softly and looked at them over the tops of his glasses with gentle, if not innocent, brown eyes. “Good afternoon, gentlemen.”

They were clearly thrown by his mild manner. Another good thing he’d learned from his many experiences was to keep your voice down. Even after all these years, he could practically hear his mother’s voice murmuring, “Louder isn’t always better, dear. Sometimes the best response is the one they can barely hear.”

Oliver took a few careful steps forward, trying not to rely on his cane even though his hip was twinging painfully from an oncoming storm front. He smiled at them, quite calmly, and reached up to dust an imaginary speck of lint from his hat. “I believe,” he continued in that same even tone, “that you’ve put Mr. Laurence in the trashcan again. And unless I’m very much mistaken, that’s quite against the established detention-time rules. If you’d just remove him, then I won’t have to write you all up another detention.”

One of the boys (Oliver thought he was probably the quarterback) regained his composure and stepped forward. “Oh yeah? How you gonna make us? You’re just a substitute!”

For a moment Oliver very much felt their differences in stature; Meeps himself had always been something of a small man, even before he relied so much on his cane, and the boy before him was a good foot taller, not to mention at least a hundred pounds heavier.

If this had been a question of physical violence, Oliver would have beat a hasty retreat at this point. Fortunately, it wasn’t, and he knew full well that the poor boy had no idea who—or what—he was dealing with. He could tell just by looking at the way the boy’s colors shifted to a kind of gaudy yellow that he was bluffing, and not particularly well. He’d gotten away with this one too many times.

He’d clearly never had to deal with old Mr. M. Oliver smiled up at him without an ounce of trepidation. “Ah, I see. Just a substitute, of course. I can’t really do anything, can I?”

“That’s right,” the boy agreed with a smug look back at his friends. There was a soft popping noise from inside the wastebasket, followed by what sounded like a rat trying to claw its way up a smooth plastic wall.

Oliver nodded agreeably. “So you say. I’m sorry, what was your name?”

“Mayes,” he said proudly, in the same tone that other people used when they’d just won awards. “Billy Mayes.”

“Ah.” Meeps took some satisfaction in knowing he’d been right. “Our school’s famed quarterback, I think I’m correct in saying?”

“That’s right,” he said with a grin. Oliver could literally see his yellow-green arrogance swelling to ridiculous proportions in his chest. Several of the boys still at the trashcan made affirmative noises, and one even stepped forward to slap Billy on the back.

Oliver continued to smile, but now his eyes narrowed a bit. Someone that knew him well would have been wary of the glint that was forming at the back of his gaze. Billy Mayes had picked the wrong day to try and bulldoze the substitute teacher. Especially this substitute teacher. “Alright then, Mr. Mayes. If you can tell me why you have the right to stuff poor Lex into the trashcan, then I suppose I won’t have to give you a detention.”

Billy stared at him blankly for a moment. He was used to substitutes and teachers alike bowing before his superior athletic record. This wasn’t the out he’d been expecting. Still, he made an effort, his face screwing up in concentration until he finally answered, “…Because the guy’s a twerp?”

The noises inside the trashcan promptly ceased. Oliver only saw the tiny ant that appeared on the rim because he was looking for it. He watched the insect for a moment as it made its way to the classroom floor, and then returned his attention to Billy. He took a moment to really consider the boy’s colors; Mayes wasn’t innately evil, but the generally scarlet tones overlaying his character spoke of natural tendencies towards cruelty and domination.

“A twerp. I see.” Oliver paused a moment to consider which tact was best, but in the end, there was really only one option. The boy’s own soul gave Oliver all the information he needed to make his point. With a long sigh, he leaned forward slightly and spoke in a low voice. “You know, Billy, when I look at you, I see a lot of things. An accomplished athlete, a natural leader. You have quite a lot of promise.”

Mayes grinned widely, but Oliver wasn’t finished yet. He looked at the sickly yellow-green color radiating from the boy’s edges and identified it easily for what it was. “I also see someone that feels like he has to impress his friends, because he’s not all sure himself that he’s the kind of man he wants to be.” A petulant flair of bruised-purple color somewhere near the middle of Billy’s chest allowed Oliver to continue, “And I think that at the end of the day, Mr. Mayes, you know full well that you’re not fulfilling your potential. And you’re angry; at yourself, or maybe your parents, or just the world for not giving you the breaks it should have. But shoving fellow students into trashcans is not the way to solve these problems, Billy.”

The boy stared at him in shock, his arrogance silenced totally by the perceptive little man before him. It was likely nothing he hadn’t heard before, but something in the quiet delivery this time seemed to have hit home. He shook his head a few times, as if trying to dislodge Oliver’s words from his brain.

Meeps looked him squarely in the eye, and though he actively chose not to fully utilize his ability to show the boy his own colors, his words had more or less the same effect as he finished, “One day, Billy, you’re going to have to face yourself in the mirror and decide what your real colors are. Why not start now and make them ones worth looking at?”

Billy stood there a moment longer, clearly thinking hard in the silent room. No one noticed when Oliver glanced down and smiled at the ant now sitting on his left shoe. When he looked back up, he was just in time to catch the moment of decision on Billy’s face as the boy reluctantly turned to the others and said, “Alright, guys. Enough is enough. Let him out.”

The right tackle went to do so, but as he glanced into the trashcan he made a startled noise and jumped back. “Hey, he’s not in here! Where’d the punk go?”

Oliver felt a dangerous shifting by his foot and groaned. “Perhaps, under the circumstances, insults wouldn’t be–”

There was a tremendous popping noise down by the floor, but instead of turning into a raging hippopotamus or an angry bird like Oliver expected, the ant merely transformed into the despondent form of Lex Laurence.

The boy looked up through his fringe of badly-gelled hair and scrambled to his feet, nearly tripping over his far-too-baggy pants. Oliver took a moment to assess the boy’s colors, but they were no different than the other times he’d seen them: angrily embarrassed pink practically lit him up like a neon sign. Without a word, the sullen young man trudged over to his abandoned desk, scooped up his scattered things, and resettled at a spot across the room, glaring daggers at his temporarily-distracted persecutors.

“Right then,” Oliver said softly. “Maybe we should all return to our seats and get on with this detention?”

Amazingly, all seven of his students did exactly as they were told, spreading out to sit in desks again. Most of them stared absently into space, the atmosphere turning thoughtful.

Eventually, though, Billy Mayes broke from his reverie. With just a quick glance at Oliver, he cleared his throat and turned instead to Lex. “Hey, uh…Lex.”

The other boy looked up out of reflex, wincing like he expected a punch. He watched Billy with wary eyes.

But no punches or insults were thrown. With careful motions, Mayes leaned over and held out his hand. “I’m…uh. I’m sorry about the whole…you know, trashcan thing. And the…the locker thing. And the pool thing. It’s not that I don’t like you or anything.” He blinked at hearing those words come out of his mouth and quickly backtracked, “Well, I don’t, but only cuz I’m popular and you’re…well, you, you know?”

To Oliver’s bemusement, Lex nodded as if that made perfect sense.

Billy continued. “It’s just…it’s kind of fun to watch. That animal thing that you do. That’s kind of cool, you know?”

Oliver held his breath for a moment, fully aware that this was as close to an attempt at reconciliation that the quarterback would ever come.

After a long beat of careful study, Lex eventually extended his own hand and gave Billy’s a quick and furtive shake. “…You think it’s cool?”

Billy shrugged. “Kinda, yeah. At least it’s not some stupid power like…like…”

“Like turning people green!” one of the other football players chipped in helpfully.

“Yeah!” Billy agreed, obviously grateful for the help. “Animals are way cooler than turning people colors!”

Oliver smiled and sat back in the teacher’s chair. He knew that, in all likelihood, this moment of inter-clique student harmony wouldn’t last. Boys would be boys, after all. But for now, he took a deep breath, and settled in to watch over the frames of his glasses as the colors in the room shifted to a shade that was almost, but not quite, the blue-gray calm of understanding.

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The Sensational Mr. Poplar

June 21, 2009 at 3:38 pm (short stories) (, , , , , )

From the writing prompt, “Careful, I’ve heard they can sense fear.”  (Saul is a new addition to the Springfield cast of characters, but I quite like him.)

Alright, everyone! It’s time to go home!” Saul Poplar clapped his hands enthusiastically. The sound was mostly lost in the ruckus cheering of eighteen second-graders who’d just been told their weekend was in sight. In the ensuing rush of packing up, Saul made his way across the classroom to take his customary station by the back door.

He waited patiently until all eighteen students were lined up, more or less in single-file, all watching him expectantly. Timothy Green was practically standing on his teacher’s toes. The boy bounced a few times until Saul put a hand on his head and firmly anchored him to the ground. “Let’s say thank you one more time to Mr. Cramer for taking a whole day off to come tell us about being a TV personality!”

As one, the students looked over their shoulders to wave enthusiastically at their guest speaker of the day and chorused “Thank you!”

Carson Cramer waved back and beamed at them. “Thank you all for having me! And remember, no matter what Mr. Poplar tells you, being a news anchor is hard work!”

“Because news never stops!” several kids piped in, quite proud that they remembered his catch phrase.

Carson winked at them, which caused several of the girls to giggle, and then turned to start packing up the things he’d brought along to help with his demonstration.

Saul rolled his eyes affectionately, and then he reached for the coats. This had become something of a ritual for him; his empathic sense let him get a bit of a read on each kid’s mood through their possessions, at least since lunchtime when they’d last put their things on. And since the items had been sitting for a few hours, the vibes were mellowed enough that he didn’t get a headache from running across someone’s bad day, either.

He reached out and grabbed Timothy’s hat from its peg. He was completely unsurprised by the pang of sadness that echoed somewhere deep inside his chest as he pulled the hat all the way down to cover the boy’s eyes. Saul put one hand on Timothy’s shoulder for a second and re-straightened the hat with the other. “You did great today, Timothy. You were a big help to Mr. Cramer. I bet your parents would be proud of you.”

Timothy looked up at him and smiled, mind clearly on getting out of the classroom to do all the fun non-school things he had planned. “Thanks, Mr. P.” Saul knew full well that the words wouldn’t make up for Timothy’s need for the parental affection he got so rarely from his often-absent parents. But he felt the boy’s mood lift a little through the hat he still touched. It was something, anyway. Hat now properly adjusted, Timothy dashed off to his weekend.

Saul smiled after him, and then turned to the next student in line. Penny Dabbs looked up at him expectantly, and he smiled. “Hi, Penny. Have a good weekend! Eat a donut for me, alright?” He felt the brown-eyed girl’s pride in being picked as hall-monitor today still lingering in the purple wool of her scarf. Saul bent to be eye-level with her as he tied the scarf into place around her neck. His brow creased with worry; the happy emotions otherwise present were dulled, as they were so often lately, by Penny’s chronic tiredness. He spoke a little softer as he looked her in the eye. “Do your parents know you didn’t sleep very well this week?”

Penny shook her head, unusually silent. Saul nodded in understanding. “Maybe you should tell them.”

“Thanks, Mr. Poplar.” Her smile was small, but genuine. She took her purple hat as he handed it to her and put it on without her usual vigor as she left the classroom.

And so the line went, as Mr. Poplar spent a moment of time with each of his kids on their way out the door. The occasional word of encouragement or gentle reprimand, always spoken at the right time in the right tone, had a marked effect on each student as they left the room. At long last, all the second-graders were gone, the classroom empty except for its teacher and its guest speaker.

With a long sigh, Saul popped his neck and then crossed the room to Carson, pausing to straighten chairs and pick up trash along the way.

His friend watched him with a thoughtful expression, and the Scot’s blue eyes twinkled with something like admiration. “You’re right brilliant with the little ones, Saul. I’ve never seen a herd of seven year olds love someone like they love you. How d’you put up with ‘em every day? I’d go mad if I had your job.”

Saul gave an easy shrug as he reached the other man’s side. The truest answer–that he could read people’s emotions through inanimate objects and thus correctly gage their mood—wasn’t really a viable response. To buy time, he spun on his heel and tossed a wadded ball of construction paper in a perfect three-point shot to the trash can in the far corner of the room. “Ah, they’re great kids. Besides, Career Week gets them all excited. They always behave better when they have speakers to impress.” He reached out his hand. “Thanks again for coming in, Carson. I know you’ve got a million things to do.”

Carson clasped the teacher’s hand with a strong grip and a smile. “Ach, it was the least I could do. Besides, this was the easy lot. I have to show a bunch of misbehaving high schoolers around the set on Monday as a reward for some science fair.”

Saul snorted at that mental image. “Careful, I’ve heard they can sense fear.”

The TV anchor shook his head a little as he snapped the final microphone case shut. “In this town, I wouldn’t doubt it. It’d be a right handy skill, though, in my business.” He chuckled to himself. “And probably in yours too, come to think of it.”

There was really no way for Saul to answer that but with a very honest, “Yeah, it really would.” He went over to collect the last two jackets on the pegs. He put on his own jacket and scarf before scooping up Carson’s long gray coat.

He actually had to close his eyes and lean against the wall for a second as a muddled ball of confusion, exhaustion and maybe a little bit of fear expanded from the center of his chest and spread out to leave his fingers tingling. His head hurt for a moment from the echoes of what must have been the killer tension headache Carson had been fighting when he donned his coat this morning.

Saul shook his head firmly and the emotions faded to a dull unease. It all took less than a few seconds, and when he turned and handed Carson his coat, his expression was clear of the emotions he now knew his friend had been feeling all day.

He handed Carson the garmet silently. The other man accepted it with a smile. “Thanks, lad.” He put his cases on a nearby desk to slip it on.

Saul watched him with new attention. Now that he looked for them, he could just see the lines around the other man’s mouth and eyes that told of his suffering through a monster headache that would have made the average person stay home from work. He could see the tiredness in Carson’s frame now, too, a slump to his normally straight shoulders that Saul felt guilty for not noticing before now.

If Saul hadn’t felt the maelstrom of unpleasantness from Carson himself, he would never believe that someone could be in that much turmoil inside and barely show a trace of it to the outside world. How the man managed to pull it off was a mystery. Impulsively, he reached out to straighten Carson’s jacket collar where it stuck up on one side. He took the opportunity to look his friend squarely in the eye. “Hey. You doing okay?”

Carson blinked, genuinely surprised by the worry in Saul’s voice. “Aye, ‘course I am. Why wouldn’t I be?”

When he only received a raised eyebrow in response, he sighed, and his shoulders slumped a little more under Saul’s hand. “I’m alright, really. Just haven’t been sleepin’ well, is all. You know how it is. Doctor says it’s just stress, I’ll come through it eventually.” He gave a wry grin and shook his head. “Never can fool you, can I?”

Saul let go of him to button up his own jacket. “Someone’s got to keep you on the straight and narrow. You’re too good at acting for your own good, but I could practically feel that headache from across the room.”

Carson’s mouth twitched into another smile as they headed for the door. “Are you sure you can’t sense things a wee bit after all? Because I could use you as a news story. Saul Poplar, the Sensational Second-Grade Teacher!”

“You must be having a slow news week. You’ll have to try harder than that, my friend.” He let Carson precede him through the door and paused for a second to look over the rows of desks, each one still radiating with the emotions of their occupants. To Saul, it was almost as if his class was still in the room.

The Sensational Second-Grade Teacher. Well, maybe he was. But it wasn’t only because he just happened to be able to feel his student’s emotions through their hats. The thought was a comforting one. With one last look around the room, Mr. Poplar turned off the lights and went to walk Carson to his car.

The classroom stilled, warm and empty, and though he didn’t know it, a vague outline of Saul’s compassion lingered in the doorway long after he was gone.

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Alone

June 6, 2009 at 2:45 pm (story exerpts) (, , )

The introduction to my story Collapsing Paradise, in which we finally discover the answers to many mysteries surrounding the Almarian race.

When the Universe was first brought into existence, it was utterly content. There could by no unhappiness or dissatisfaction because nothing was lacking. This state of harmony and peace lasted a relatively short time (though some would argue that time did not, as yet, exist). In any case, it was shattered in the second that the first sentient being opened his eyes and gazed up at the cosmos. For those first precious moments, all was good—and then that first man asked, “Am I it?”

Something in the universe shook. There had never been aloneness before. The problem was quickly rectified, but the echoes of that voice–“Am I alone?”– reverberate across the background of reality even now. Some words, spoken at a certain time and a certain place, can change the Universe, and these were some of those. No being in the twelve inhabited Galaxies was ever truly alone again.

Until recent Cycles, in any case.

The story of the first man (or cephalopod, or green slime-bug of Graxus VI) is more or less consistent from planet to planet and culture to culture. Variations arise here and there, as they tend to do. Still, some creation myths are truly universal, finding roots and facets in every culture because they ring true to every being who has looked up at the stars and wondered, “Is this all?”

Just one detail has changed from the original tale, which hasn’t been told in so long that no one alive today has heard it spoken aloud. In the first story, the real story, that first being was actually the first Almarian.

The significance of this can only really be appreciated if you happen to meet one of the remaining twelve members of the Almarian race in the Universe. They are infinitesimal pockets of alone in an otherwise occupied cosmos.

If you happen to stop by the space station Paradise near the transwarp that connects the Milky Way to the other eleven galaxies, you can actually meet two Almarians. It is, in official record, the largest gathering of their species in the modern history of the Universe. The mathematical probability of two Almarians being in the same place at the same time is just under 3 x 10-9 percent.

There is no explanation for their impossibly improbable meeting and eventual friendship. Except that if there is one thing that the Universe cannot tolerate, it is that anything—or anyone—should be alone forever. But Paradise is a place in which beings have bent reality because they have discovered that they cannot bend their lives.

For the Almarians known as Ano and Elim, it is somewhere that true loneliness can still be suffered, even in the company of others. This will not be the case for long. The Universe abhors a lonely being. It doubly loathes a pair of them.

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Leaking

May 28, 2009 at 5:41 pm (short stories) (, , , , , , )

From the writing prompt, “The roof was leaking.” This story is set farther along in the Springfield timeline than most of the others.

It had been raining now for seven days straight. Jean Knockings brushed her hair from her face and stood from the dirt floor she’d been sleeping on. She made her way to the door of the hut and looked out at the steaming jungle. The air was so thick with moisture that it felt like a wet cloth pressed against her skin. The smell of wet animal hide radiated from the walls of the hut; it would make her stomach turn if she hadn’t grown used to it months before.

The roof was leaking. The soft drip drip drip of water hitting the ground behind her played an odd counterpoint to the insistent tap tap tap of the rain beating against the sides of the hut. She knew that if she turned to look, she’d be able to see a puddle of water directly in the middle of the packed dirt floor where the rain was leaking through the hole in the alpaca skin at the pinnacle of the roof.

In a weird way, she envied that skin. The idea of being able to gouge a hole and let all the accumulated pressure in her mind pour out was more than a little appealing. After seven days, she knew this place so well that she could literally see it with her eyes closed. With absolutely perfect recall. There were days when Jean truly hated having this ability to remember everything she saw. Sometimes, she thought forgetting would be easier.

No, she admitted to herself, not sometimes. All the time.

Remembering was hard. Especially on days like this one, in weeks like this one, where she had to sit still and just wait for whatever weather crisis or local custom was currently blocking her path to blow through so she could continue on her quest. She snorted softly to herself. Quest was too civilized a word, though one she liked better. Hunt was more appropriate. A hunt for the man who had done so much damage to so many people. The man that had sent her brother to his death and left his body on the floor.

Doctor Aakil Sarin was out there somewhere, and Jean hated sitting still. After six months of being on his tail—six months of near-misses, of dashed hopes, of travel through so many countries that anyone but her would have lost count—she’d finally tracked him down to Sao Paulo in Brazil. In retrospect she should have come here first; in a lot of ways, this place was the genesis of Sarin’s madness. She supposed that in a way, it probably felt like home to him.

She’d been so close this time. Practically close enough to taste the end of her long and so far fruitless chase. She’d even seen Sarin; seen his eyes widen in recognition, seen him flee across the crowded street and into the waiting cart before she could stop him or even speak. She could see the smug smile on his face with crystal clarity when she closed her eyes, even though she’d only spotted it for a fraction of a second before the cart whisked him off towards the mountains.

The mountains where she was now stuck, waiting for the rain to stop so she could continue on her search once again.

Jean still didn’t know what she was going to do when she caught up with Sarin. What was she supposed to do to the man who’d killed her twin, who’d manipulated them both for so long that she couldn’t ever remember a time when he hadn’t had a hand in their lives?

She remembered once, when she and John were five and John had just stolen yet another of her favorite toys, that their mother had taken Jean in her lap and rocked her softly while she cried. “You have to learn how to forgive and forget, Jean.”

Jean remembered her little girl self staring up into her mother’s eyes with bewilderment. “I can’t forget, Momma. I don’t know how.”

Her mother’s expression had been one of understanding; looking back on it now, knowing what kind of man Mr. Knockings had been, Jean wondered just how much of that was empathy, because then she’d said, “Then you’re gonna have to try twice as hard to forgive people, sweetie. Because if you don’t, you’ll get eaten up on the inside. Sometimes, with John, you just have to let things go, like water out of a sieve. How much can you hold before you burst?”

Jean’s brown eyes refocused absently into the present and she blinked quickly to hold back the tears that threatened. She hadn’t cried since she found John’s body on the floor of his office. Not once in six months. “Now what, Momma?” she whispered to no one. “How can I forgive what I can’t forget?”

So many things engraved forever into her mind’s eye: thirty-two years of life with John forever half a step in front of her, underhanded deals she’d been forced time and time again to concede to, a thousand arguments with her brother that she’d never won. And the look on John’s face, that cocky smile that used to hate so much but that she now missed so much it ached. The look he’d had the very last time she’d seen him alive, when he’d walked out the door after she’d told him that she never wanted to see him again.

Famous last words. Ones that she couldn’t ever erase, now that he was dead.

The last living Knockings looked up and watched as a drop of water collected on the torn piece of skin at the apex of the roof, solidified into a drop, and fell into the puddle on the mud floor. Like water out of a sieve.

And all at once, Jean’s impressively brilliant mind finally came to the conclusion that maybe–just maybe–forgiveness wasn’t about forgetting at all. Maybe forgiveness was just letting something leak out to puddle on the floor so you could step over it and move on.

For the first time in six months, Jean let herself feel. And as soon as she did, the tears began to fall.

Drip drip drip.

In the middle of a rainstorm in the jungle of Brazil, in a tiny animal-skin hut with a leaking roof, Jean Knockings cried. She cried and cried until she couldn’t breath, until even she had lost count of the tears, and she mourned her brother. She cried for the way John had died, and for the way he’d lived. She cried for the betrayal of their family by Aakil Sarin…and as she finally began to breathe again, she found herself crying for the doctor himself. Because his life was a dark and bitter one, and he’d never had a family, not like she’d had.

When she finally straightened again, the rain hadn’t lessened. But she took a deep breath of the damp air…and smiled. She knew what she’d do now, when she caught up with Sarin.

She’d forgive him. And maybe, someday, she could forgive her brother, too. Because the bitterness and the heartache had spilled out of her a little, like water out of a sieve. Like the leaking roof above her head. Drip drip drip.

Jean didn’t have to forget. She just had to let it go in little drops until she could leave it behind. Maybe, someday, when the pressure in her head had cleared, she might even be able to forgive herself.

She could wait. With a long sigh, Jean sat back down on the dirt floor and watched the rain leak through the roof.

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Saturday Morning in the Park

May 15, 2009 at 5:42 pm (short stories) (, , , , , , )

From the writing prompt, “Destroying the world would probably be easier.” This one doesn’t need much explaining, except that these guys are two of my favorite characters ever.

It was nine o’clock on Saturday morning and the weather was beautiful, which meant that Eugene Bud was in the park. He strolled across the grass, dodged a group of kids playing Frisbee, and made his way over to the benches near the gazebo.

The old barber took a deep breath of the early summer air and let it out in a sigh of satisfaction. It was one of those clichéd perfect summer days, with the chirping birds and the light breeze and the sweet smell of grass on the air. And, because it was nine o’clock on a Saturday morning and the weather was beautiful, Oliver Meeps was waiting for him on their normal bench at the northwest corner of the gazebo. The sunlight was cooler here, deflected by the fluttering leaves of a huge old oak tree that was probably as old as Springfield itself.

Eugene lowered himself down across from his friend onto the worn white stone of the bench. “Morning, Oliver.”

The other man tipped his hat cordially, and the sunlight glinted off the rims of his glasses. “Morning, Eugene.” He reached down into the worn satchel at his feet and pulled out a wooden box: chestnut, still glossy and smooth even after years of wear. The well-oiled bronze hinges barely made a sound as the box opened onto the bench between them to reveal a hand-crafted chess set.

The two men looked at the jumble of checkerboard, black-and-white horsemen, chipped castle towers, slender kings and queens. After a long moment of consideration, Oliver looked up expectantly. “It’s the third Saturday, you know.”

Eugene blinked and raised his blue eyes from their scrutiny. “Is it? I could’ve sworn it was only the second.” He shook his head ruefully; the leaf-shaped patterns of light on his hair shifted with the movement. “Alright then. No use letting you get any more of an upper hand. I’ll take the white.”

Oliver smiled and shook his head. “You always do. Going first isn’t always best, you know.” He reached for the black pieces anyway and began to put them in their places with elegant fingers.

Eugene waved him off with the hand not busy arranging his own forces on the board. “If I’ve said it once, I’ve said it a million times. It’s a matter of principle. Who doesn’t want to be the white knight in shining armor?” He picked up one of his knights with a grin and twirled it between his fingers. “Besides,” he continued as he replaced the piece with care back into its alloted square at B-1, “It’s good strategy. Never let the opponent have the first move.”

Their banter was easy and well-rehearsed, really just a verbal precursor to the ensuing game. They both settled in, staring at the board intently. When nothing happened for several minutes, Oliver cleared his throat. “About that first move…”

“I know, I know.” Eugene was already fingering his walrus mustache, a sure sign of intense thought. Finally, he reached out for the horseman he’d displaced earlier and moved it. “Knight to A-3.”

His friend looked impressed. “You know, I don’t think I’ve ever seen you lead with the knight before. Feeling the need to change your strategy?”

“Sick of getting beat,” Bud chuckled. “You can only rely on your pawns so long before you’ve gotta accept that just because some moves are traditional doesn’t mean you have to use them.”

“Good advice,” Oliver said with a smile. “They should have you speak up at the school to motivate the kids.” He reached to his own line of pieces. “Still, sometimes traditional is best. Pawn to G-6.”

Oliver’s gaze stayed on the board, already planning two or three moves ahead in anticipation of his friend’s next move. He and Eugene had played this game more than enough to know each other’s strategies and rhythms. It was a challenge to find new attacks that wouldn’t be anticipated. It took Oliver a while to notice that once again, the other man hadn’t moved. He looked over to Bud again to see him still staring into space, and for the first time concern creased his brow, deepening the divot between his eyes. “Gene?”

Eugene’s eyes looked up in surprise at the nickname, rarely used. His bushy white eyebrows raised expectantly. “Yeah?”

“Your turn,” Oliver prompted softly.

“Ah, I’m sorry.” The barber gave a long sigh and rubbed his forehead with two fingers. “Don’t know what’s gotten into me today. I was somewhere else.”

“I could tell,” Meeps said with a soft grin. “Care to share?”

Eugene looked down at the board. His hand reached out and gently touched the top of his G-square knight. “I was just thinking,” he said slowly, in a voice much gentler than the one Oliver was used to hearing from him, “that there’s more pressure on the man that picks the white pieces.”

Philosophy wasn’t an uncommon subject for them, but it normally didn’t appear in conversation until at least the fifth turn. Oliver focused his full attention on the man across from him, the board temporarily forgotten. “How do you mean?”

Bud shrugged, eyes still on the pieces in front of him, though Oliver suspected that his mind’s eye was focused a long way off. “Well, the white knight has a lot to do, doesn’t he? Save the world, rescue the damsel in distress, slay the dragon, defeat the evil king. Seems like a lot of work, doesn’t it?” He paused a moment, then moved the knight into symmetry with its twin. “Knight to H-3.” He pointed to Oliver’s end of the board. “The black knight, though, what’s his job? All he has to do is stop the white knight from doing all that good-guy hero stuff. It’s simpler. Cleaner.”

Oliver weighed his response carefully as he returned his attention to the game. His next move would be predictable, if reliable. He sat back in his seat a bit and looked out over the park. “You’re right, you know,” he remarked thoughtfully. “Destroying the world would probably be easier. Saving it is so much work. Pawn to B-5.”

“I never said ‘easier’, just ’simpler’,” Eugene noted. “Pawn to B-4. You really think it’d be easier?”

This time it was Oliver who looked away from the game for a long moment. At last, his brown eyes rested on the two pawns, now deadlocked in the middle of the board. He reached out and brushed an imaginary speck of dust off the white one. “It would have to be, wouldn’t it? To save the world, you have to care enough about the people in it to think it’s worth it.”

There was a long moment of silence after that. Both men were pulled in their minds to far-off places: one to a marketplace in Serbia, with a gun in his hand, and the other to a long-gone kitchen table, and the sound of children laughing.

“Harder,” Eugene finally agreed. His voice was a little gruff. “But still right.”

Oliver nodded slowly in agreement, and the two men shared a moment of understanding despite all the things that would never be known or said between them.

Then Eugene cleared his throat and leaned forward. “Alright, enough of that. It’s time for me to kick your scrawny historian behind at chess. Pawn to C-2!”

“It’s my move, you barbarian barber!”

It was nine thirty on Saturday morning and the weather was beautiful. And so Eugene Bud, former CIA agent, and Oliver Meeps, former superhero, were playing chess in the park. Two white knights, chipped and worn around the edges, but still standing firmly in their squares, looking out at the far-off black kings on the horizon.

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Easter Changes Everything

April 13, 2009 at 3:14 pm (reflections) (, , , )

It’s amazing, really, how one single event (or at least one single culminating event) can forever change the course of history. And not just history; it can also forever change a single life. My life, in fact…and, I hope, yours. How can this be true, you ask?

Because Jesus died on the cross and rose again three days later, all of our relationships have changed!
The point of Easter was for God to change the world.

We can talk to God directly; no more veils or earthly intercessors.
The blood of Jesus gives us leave to enter the throne room of Heaven.

We can join together regardless of race or class or culture into the unified body of the church.
And it is an eternal family. My friends will have to listen to my questions literally forever!

We are no longer slaves to sin, but dead to it!
Praise Jesus, who conquered death so that we might benefit. Oh death, where is thy sting?

And best of all, we believers are even now alive in Christ.
How should we then live?

Heady stuff indeed. Happy Easter to all. May we never forget that Jesus’ death and resurrection has made us free to live, free to love, and free to experience the real joy of purpose. God is good. I picked the last half of Philippians chapter 3 as my favorite Easter passage this year because in it, Paul describes the life we should be living, now that we are indeed alive in the blood of Jesus.

“But whatever things were gain to me, those things I have counted as loss for the sake of Christ.

More than that, I count all things to be loss in view of the surpassing value of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord,
for whom I have suffered the loss of all things, and count them but rubbish so that I may gain Christ, and may be found in Him,
not having a righteousness of my own derived from the Law, but that which is through faith in Christ,
the righteousness which comes from God on the basis of faith,
that I may know Him and the power of His resurrection
and the fellowship of His sufferings, being conformed to His death;
in order that I may attain to the resurrection from the dead.

Not that I have already obtained it or have already become perfect,
but I press on so that I may lay hold of that for which also I was laid hold of by Christ Jesus.

Brethren, I do not regard myself as having laid hold of it yet; but one thing I do:
forgetting what lies behind and reaching forward to what lies ahead,
I press on toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus.”

~Philippians 3:7-14

Happy Easter!

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Blindly (or: Inspired by a Lonely Astronomer)

April 8, 2009 at 12:18 pm (Poetry/Lyrics) (, , )

Life is merely a matter of
Balance–
between pressures from within
and the gravity of
Life without.

Hydro-static equilibrium
of the mind
keeps the heart from exploding
or crushing under the
Force of
the Universe.

Forces incomprehensible
in Blackness
shapes stars and galaxies into
Curves of intellect
and reason.
On what curve do we travel
through the
Chaos Void?

All existence is merely measured
as relative luminosity
within the great deep
black Field–
Perspective limited by
laws of Time
and Love.

We see one curve, one
spark of Light, and then
we dream of nebulas
And gaping holes of
Hope in
the fabric of Reality.
It is a moment’s infatuation
with Eternity.

We are on a blind date with
the Universe.

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Watching the Sunset

April 3, 2009 at 10:28 am (reflections) (, )

Out in the desert, that last hour between day and night can be really spectacular. Some things are just so beautiful that you have to try and catch them on paper, even though you know that you’ll never get it quite right. This is my feeble attempt.

The sunset sets the long red-brown desert on fire. Massive purple clouds drift and layer, reflecting deep rose-gold colors in their underbellies, as if they’ve been dipped in the molten, dripping sun. Darkness begins closing at the edges of the sky, turning the far-off lavender mountains to shady shapes and eating up the blue-and-cream streaked expanse.

The clouds deepen as the sun sinks beneath the horizon, behemoths of purple-deep shadow soaked in crimson at the edges. The sky becomes that calm, quiet periwinkle that always comes just before night sets in, as if the heavens, now purified by the red-gold spills of the sun, are refreshed and prepared–a baptism of fire that leaves a canvas for the coming night.

In these last moments, when the day is still in the heavens, chasing the sun behind the horizon, there is a deep feeling of tranquility–even peace for the soul.

The night, with its fresh moon and softly budding stars, is the more beautiful when it comes but gently on the last fragile wisps of day.

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First Appearances

March 12, 2009 at 12:43 pm (story exerpts) (, , , )

An excerpt from my story Corrupting Paradise , in which the Paradise team has to enter the mind of a mentally unsound client in order to keep his virtual world from collapsing.

The first things Tri noticed were the books. This was for the sole reason that there were a lot of them. The endless rows of bookshelves filled the entirety of the massive cathedral-style stone building they inhabited. Triyankast had to squint to see past a few hundred yards because the lighting was so dim. He’d never understood the people who wanted this type of world.

Tri was always the first one to materialize. They’d never been able to figure out why it worked that way, though Elim had made a few comments along the lines that since Tri’s mind was never really wholly on one thing anyway, jumping consciousnesses was a piece of cake. Maybe he was right. In any case, the young man had a moment to look around before the others appeared.

It was raining outside. Not just light, sprinkling rain. This was a downpour of heavy, cold drops that exploded against the windowpanes that made up the top half of the gray stone walls and stretched from floor to ceiling in the curves of massive bay windows farther back. If not for the giant fires that burned eternally in the massive stone hearths every five or six yards along the walls, this place would have been damp and gloomy.

Tri would take a hot beach with plenty of pretty, shallow people on it any day.

With a quiet pop, Becken appeared on his left. A moment later, Jenny materialized on his right with a soft shh that sounded like wind blowing through leaves.

Ano’s voice came from behind him. “Shall we?”

Ano always appeared last; they’d never been able to figure that out either. Tri was relatively sure she could beat even him to get here first if she tried, but she always materialized after everyone else. She was the only one of them that never made a sound as she blinked into someone’s head. Ano moved silently from mind to mind, treading on the quiet feet of someone who had learned to move without leaving any trace of her existence. Tri had seen enough of that on the streets where she had found him to recognize that his boss had learned early on how to make herself disappear.

Becken cast a jaded eye around the shelves. “Not where I’d want to spend forever.”

Jenny shuddered in agreement, her fair skin glowing golden in the firelight. “Does it ever get sunny?”

Ano shook her head. “Never. He was very explicit in his directions that rain be the only sound he hear besides the flipping of dusty tomes.”

“What kind of literature did you stock him with?” Tri did a full turn, taking in the seemingly endless shelves. “At least half the history section.”

“All of it, actually,” she replied easily. “Everything we had in the library.” That earned her a few incredulous looks. She shrugged, nonplussed by their attention. “He paid a lot of money.” She tapped her earpiece into place and the others mimicked her.

Elim’s voice crackled over the channel, barely audible. Tri traded a worried look with Becken at the distortion. The building structure had to be severely strained to interfere with the team’s signal.

“Structure–ting—wor–” the Operator garbled.

It took a moment for Ano to figure out what he meant. “The building structure is collapsing.”

“What–aid!” Elim said indignantly.

“You’re breaking up, Op,” Tri informed him. “We can barely hear you.”

“—ed to—repr—str-re–”

Not even Ano caught that one. Her forehead creased in concentration. “Say again, Elim?”
Only static greeted her request.

The four looked at each other uneasily. There had never been a program so badly damaged that it completely disrupted their line of communication with the outside world. Tri caught Jenny’s hand in his and gave it an encouraging squeeze. There was nothing for it now but to get the place fixed so they could leave.

Ano seemed to come to the same conclusion. “Spread out, teams of two. Jenny, Tri, I want you to find Mr. Zebbanaca. If this really is a programming issue, we may have to remove him and I’d like you there to explain it. Becken and I will do some maintenance. Check-ins every half hour, please. We’ll keep trying to reach Elim.” She paused a moment to make sure everyone was clear. “Right. Move out.”

They did.

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Rain

February 22, 2009 at 5:45 pm (definitions) (, )

Rain (reyn), n:

A soft drumming on window-panes. The roar of impending storm and breaking flood. Sparkling diamonds suspended in air, beautiful in fleeting sun. The gray mist around a lamp post; the smear of neon lights on wet pavement. An intimate, warm touch against the skin late at night. The soothing background noise to a comfortable bed; by turns, the fierce rage of close-by thunder and lightning. The tears of God and angels over the dry and chaotic world. A gray day full of wet umbrellas and too-hot rubber coats. Lonely puddles, strangely melancholy in the aftermath of clouds. The gift of life to dark, thirsty soil. The setting for sad goodbyes and star-crossed kisses. A stifling deluge from the sky. The context of a rainbow. The cleansing of creation’s sorrow; the baptism of the world, re-birthed in soft, damp shades of green and brown and gray.

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