The Garden (All Shattered)

December 30, 2008 at 5:07 pm (short stories) (, )

Light…all away…”

Yuki finds her in the garden. It’s the first place he looks these days. Something about the flowers and the sun seems to draw her here, even if she can’t really see them anymore.

“Where did all the colors go? Pretty colors…”

She twirls around, her white dress swirling after her. There’s a single white rose in her hands, and he thinks for a second that if the sound was muted, this would be his perfect picture of Alia. But the words trickle through, like water out of a broken sieve, like blood out of torn skin. He can smell the blood before he catches sight of it. It’s dripping down her arm. She must have caught herself on a thorn.

“Rain, rain, go away…” she giggles, spins again, the blood-stained petals floating after her as she sings. “All the darkness all around me.”

He reaches out to catch her hand, still her crazy spinning and make the world solid for her, only to barely stop himself in time. She hates him sneaking up on her. He never knows if she’ll let him near her or scream in fear. He wonders sometimes if she sees the demon underneath his skin on the days she screams. His words are soft and gentle, out of habit. “Alia, come inside.”

Today is a good day. She smiles when she sees him, that smile that takes his breath away because just for an instant it’s his Alia standing there, not her fragmented shadow. Then she giggles again and his soul feels a little sick.

“Pretty boy all wrapped in silver…”

He wonders, too, what she sees on days like this, the days she smiles at him. He thinks maybe his soul is like paper wrapped around his demon, like gift wrap around a present no one actually wants to receive. It makes him wonder if she doesn’t understand him better now than she ever did before. Yuki shivers in the sunlight.

“The shadows go away,” she tells him, and she takes his hand and lifts his arm to spin underneath it, dancing like they never did before. “Silver man all shiny. Where are the shadow men?”

He stops her with a hand to her waist, frozen for a second in what could almost be a waltz if one of them wasn’t insane. He looks carefully at her bloodied fingers; the cuts are deep. “Come on, Alia. We should go inside. You need to sleep…”

No!” she screams, and in a second the moment of near-normalcy is over and she’s wrenching away from him, scrambling backwards, holding her head. “No! Walls around me, closing up my brain!” She huddles into a tiny ball by the rose bushes, smearing blood on her face as her hands clutch at her hair. “All dark…all dark.”

Yuki closes his eyes for a second, trying to find strength he doesn’t think he has anymore. He’s lost count of how often they’ve replayed this scene. It still hurts every time. He reaches out despite himself, wishes he could brush her hair back from her face, hold her hand, embrace her until the big cruel world just went away and left them both alone. “Alia…”

She beats at his hands, frantic, with none of the strength or accuracy he remembers her having. “Get away get away get away! Monster! Monster! Big black monster, all wrapped up!”

He grabs her wrists, looks into eyes that he used to know better than his own to find them filled with terror and confusion. His soul breaks somewhere in the middle of his chest, because he knows what she’s looking at and knows she sees the truth.

“Shadows coming!” She breaks away again, but she only goes a few feet before she crumples to the ground, like the world is so heavy on her shoulders that her bones are breaking. “Shadows coming…”

“Alia…” Very, very carefully, Yuki kneels beside her. “There are no shadows.” He knows somewhere inside him that this is a lie, but it is a lie that calms her almost instantly. He makes a soothing noise and reaches out to once more take her hand. “The shadows are dead. I promise.”

“No shadows?” She looks up at him at last, and he knows she will believe him. He wonders, of all things she can see so clearly now, why this lie is one thing she cannot.

“No,” he whispers, as he helps her to her feet. “Never any shadows.”

She looks at him helplessly, now clinging to the hand that seconds ago seemed to burn her. “Silver man goes away. Big big world…scary…”

He gives a little smile. “The world’s not that big. And we only have to walk a couple steps, alright? Just a little ways.” She doesn’t say anything, and so he takes her hand and tugs her a little, guiding her along the rock path back to the house. This is their life now, his and hers, and it is nothing like how he imagined it, when he let the thought cross his mind back in the days when she was the smarter and the braver and the steadier of the two of them. Yuki now knows that he never thought she would need taking care of, least of all by him.

They move silently into the house, quiet and still and sad and heavy with her madness and his desperation and the love, the history that chains him here, to her.

A vase in the living room is broken, its shards scattered, glittering, across the carpet, the red rose it had been holding laid across the pieces like some kind of sacrifice. She always breaks things.

“Broken world, all shattered…”

Yuki looks at his Alia and thinks that she has never made more sense.

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Accident

December 29, 2008 at 10:29 am (story exerpts) (, )

Becken met Ano entirely by mistake on the waterfront of Traxton VI in the Saxic Galaxy. More accurately, Becken met Ano entirely by accident on the waterfront of Traxton VI, because there was just no other word for explaining how she got shoved out of a bar door, tripped by a random passerby and promptly catapulted straight into his arms when he’d only been standing there wondering what all the ruckus was about and where the closest drink was.

Looking back on it, he’d wondered more than once if she’d planned it somehow. She hadn’t acted a bit surprised to find herself leaning back in his arms looking up at him when she’d been standing on her own two feet a moment ago.

The normal etiquette for this kind of situation generally included embarrassed thanks and an awkward parting and nothing more. And that was probably how it would have gone if Ano’s weight hadn’t thrown Becken off-balance and sent them both crashing off the dock into the purple water below. The water was warm and shallow, but being tackled and subsequently soaked by a complete stranger when he hadn’t even gotten his first drink yet was insane enough to make the whole thing seem a lot funnier than it would have been otherwise.

She pushed her damp hair out of her eyes and smiled at him, ignoring the knee-deep water they were standing in. “Hi,” she said easily.

For a moment he just stared at her…and then he started laughing. They stood there for a good five minutes in the water, laughing themselves silly and getting worried looks from passing strangers. Becken couldn’t remember the last time he’d had more fun.

After they both managed to collect themselves, Ano ended up apologizing by paying for drinks at the nearest bar neither of them had been thrown out of. At the time, that was the only kind of apology Becken would have accepted anyway. It wasn’t until their second round of Katlantian gin that introductions were finally made. For perhaps the only time in his history, Becken was the one who initiated them. He held out a giant black hand and looked her squarely in her brilliantly green eyes. “Becken.”

She simply smiled and returned both the handclasp and the gaze and Becken was struck that he was looking at one of the last Almarians in any of the twelve known galaxies as she responded, “Ano. You ever have an idea that just won’t leave you alone, Becken? Something to live for?”

Becken hadn’t had very many ideas that weren’t inspired by the bottom of a glass for what felt like a lifetime. “Can’t say I have,” he rumbled back, not entirely sure why he was being honest.

Ano grinned wryly into her glass and swirled the last of her drink around, which was the exact same shade of blue as her hair. “Well if you’re free, then…” her green eyes came up to lock with his dark ones again and in that moment, Becken realized that he would say yes regardless of what she asked. She tilted her head at him and put her drink down. “Want to help me with mine?”

Becken drained his glass, unaware that it would be the last one he’d touch for close to eighteen Cycles, and set it down. “Sure. I have nothing else to do.” The words were a pact between them, and from the moment he uttered them Becken understood somewhere deep inside himself that his life had changed.

They went for a walk underneath the twinkling green sky. Word by word, Ano painted a picture of a place where dreams came true and the universe was what you made it and where the two of them would become very, very rich. And because he felt completely helpless to ever tell this woman–this Almarian who looked at him instead of through him—no to anything, he told her that they would do it. Together. Somewhere out in the stars, they would create Paradise.

Ano laughed and threaded her arm through his, looking up at the stars. “We need a few more people to help, you know.”

He looked down at her because she was more interesting than the sky. “Who?”

She shrugged and started walking. “We’ll know when we find them.”

Becken looked after her for a second, unfamiliar with the feeling building in his cold chest. He was pretty sure that for the first time in his life, he might actually love something. The black man innately understood that Ano spent more time dwelling on the way things should work than the way things really happened. He knew without being told that this angel who’d just turned his world upside down needed protecting, needed watching after. He had the sudden insight that maybe–just maybe–he’d been destined for the job.

So he looked down at her and smiled; the expression was one he hadn’t used in a very long time; especially not twice in one day. “Of course we will,” he said simply. Ano walked on, and Becken followed.

It had been that way ever since.

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Still

December 23, 2008 at 6:31 pm (story exerpts) (, )

Triyankast was never completely sure whether Ano and Becken set him up the day he met them or if some insane coincidence worked it out so that he just happened to get caught pick pocketing from the one being in the twelve galaxies who had the ability to change his life forever. He liked to think it was the first one, because the second one was just too scary to really consider for long without getting a headache.

In any case, it happened. Right in the middle of a crowded, noisy street in Lukka, the second-largest city in the Colona Galaxy, as a matter of fact.

Tri had been leaning casually against a fruit stand as he took his time to find the perfect mark. He needed money for food and a ticket to anywhere but where he currently was, and it took a practiced eye to find just the right person to pinch it from.

The instant she stepped out of the store, he saw her; it only took him a second to choose the woman with the blue hair as his mark, if for no other reason than she’d be easy to spot in the surrounding throng.

She looked nervous and lost, craning her head around like she was trying to find someone. (Looking back on it, Tri knew that it had to be a setup just because of that. He’d never once seen Ano lost or nervous since.)

One of her hands was loosely hovering by her left pocket, which was obviously where her valuables were stored. From her state of dress (classy but not flashy) and the rings on her fingers (understated but rather expensive), Tri figured that those valuables were probably pretty significant. She looked like an easy target.

The accomplished thief pocketed a piece of fruit for later and joined the mass of sentience, putting his head down and blending in with practiced ease. At the nearest corner he stopped and waited until his mark came abreast of him. A bump, a grab, and a seemingly sincere “Sorry!” later, Tri palmed her platinum credit disc and turned, smiling widely, to spend it somewhere.

For almost an entire second, he thought he’d gotten away with it. Then a massive black hand fell on his shoulder and spun him around to reveal an equally massive black man who stared down at him with threatening dark eyes. “Very smooth,” the man rumbled with a voice that matched his stature.

Triyankast’s brain went blank for possibly the first time in his life. His mouth opened and closed a few times before he finally gave up on excuses and smiled winningly. “I thought so. Feel like rewarding me for my prowess?”

The man plucked the stolen credit disc from Tri’s hand and held it out to his side between two fingers. The blue-haired woman who owned it reached out to take it and pocket it again, sidling up to stand next to her rescuer. It was only as the two exchanged an amused look that Tri realized they knew each other.

The young thief figured he had nothing left to lose and so he smiled brightly at his former victim. “Hi there!” Then he saw her green eyes and made the connection to the blue hair and the money and realized that he’d just tried to rob one of the last Almarians in existence. This was a seriously bad day, even for him.

She cocked her head at him and those bright eyes fixed on him, like she was seeing past his smile into his brain. It struck Tri quite suddenly that she was the only being on the street that looked comfortable standing completely still. She was also one of the only people he’d ever met who looked right at him instead of past him. He found, to his surprise, that he respected that.

She had savvy. Instinctively, Tri knew something about Ano that no one else would ever suspect: she’d been out on the streets, and however she’d managed to live through it, she must have been good at it to end up this confident and to have this massive man follow at her heels.

Suddenly she moved again, her head righting itself and her eyes sparkling like they’d just had an entire conversation and she was pleased with the results. “What’s your name?” Her accent was unusual, and highly cultured.

A hundred phony identities danced across his mind and he almost used every one of them. But for some reason he would never be able to fully explain, Tri looked her square in the eye and told the truth. “Triyankast. Tri, for people who get sick of yelling the entire thing.”

She nodded thoughtfully. “I’m Ano, and this is Becken. We have a proposition for you.”

This was not at all the day he’d expected to be having. “What kind of proposition are we talking about?”

Ano smiled at him again, and it was the kind of smile that said she already knew exactly what was going to happen and she was just humoring him by filling him in. “You’re going to come with us, and I’m going to buy you lunch.”

Tri was downright curious now, but he wasn’t stupid. “Am I going to end up in prison right after that?”

“I wasn’t planning on it, no.”

Becken’s mouth opened, Ano glared at him and he snapped it shut again. She gave Tri a look that was disturbingly sincere.

For some reason he actually believed her. “I can’t argue with that. What’s the catch?”

The Almarian traded a long glance with Becken and then her green gaze shifted back to this new arrival. “I’m going to offer you a job. And you’re going to take it.”

And of course that’s exactly what happened, for reasons Tri still didn’t understand. All he knew was that because of that day, his life changed totally and completely. He never learned to like Becken–mostly because the threatening look in the man’s dark eyes never really went away. He did, however, learn to like Ano straight away. And from the first time he called the Almarian “Boss” Tri realized that he’d follow her to the end of the galaxies and back if she asked him to.

Meeting Jenny a Cycle later certainly didn’t hurt, of course.

But still, from that moment in Lukka onward, whenever he was with Ano, Triyankast would always get the unnerving feeling that he was standing still while the rest of the galaxy rushed past him.

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